i don’t ever get on here anymore but this is the only private space i have at the moment. so here it goes: i literally cannot stop thinking about one of my coworkers he is so funny sweet and cute. hes also CLUELESS. i had to mention to his friend that i was single in order for him to even get the message. currently sitting outside on my lunch after i agreed to work late simply because he was working and needed someone to stay. i cannot stop. i literally want to so bad, i even broke up with my boyfriend because the feelings were too strong i couldnt ignore them. now im fucking my other ex while living with my newest ex just waiting for july to run around for someone to take over his half of the lease. it is such a crazy ass time in my life idk what to do. i seriously feel so good recently too, like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. oh and im supposed to start school on the 14th so that’s also exciting. UGH lol when i mentioned it to my coworker he offered to help me with school too…….i think he got the message that i’m single hehehe or maybe hes just trying to be nice, but idk i feel like there are feelings there but we just dont know how to process it. idk idk idk
hopefully no one actually reads this, and if u did, no u didnt.
being on here again is bringing back way too many bad memories
being in a bad relationship goes so much further than the break up, ive been single for 5 months now and im still waking up to hateful messages and fake apologies for the fucked up things he said the night before.
